North Devon mum whose ex husband lost his life to drugs has turned to music to spare others the same fate.
A TORRINGTON mother has turned to the internet to express in music the loss of her former husband and father of her two children â€“ and to warn young people of the dangers of drugs and alcohol.
Tanya Squire, 35, told the Gazette how she had lived with her former husband Nicholasâ€™ drug habit for 13 years until they parted last year.
Then in June of this year he died from a drugs overdose at the age of 35.
Music had helped her through her darkest days, said Tanya. Now she hoped to use it to raise awareness of the dangers of drugs and alcohol, particularly for the young.
She has used the internet to post her own composition â€˜Through the Veilâ€™ on iTunes and other details on Facebook.
â€œIt is a Christian song which tells how God has pulled me out of a dark situation and put me on the right path and that if I can do it, anyone can do it,â€ she said.
â€œI have done it now because I feel that Christmas is not such an enjoyable time for those who have lost loved ones. I have always had a musical ability and play in a Christian band, the Worship Band at Living Wells Church in Pottington Road, Barnstaple. The church and its social life put me back on the right lines and I started writing songs when Nick died, as a way of dealing with my emotions.â€
Tanya explained how she had been with Nicholas for 13 years, 10 of them as husband and wife, during which time they had gone through many ups and downs. Their two daughters are now aged six and 11.
â€œI had to really battle with the situation for the whole of my married life. It was an emotional roller coaster for me and for our children. When we broke up, I did it for the children, not for me,â€ she said.
Nicholas had been drawn into using drugs from a young age, mixing with the wrong people, said Tanya.
â€œHe started with cannabis and worked his way up to harder drugs. He tried a number of times to get off them, going in to rehabilitation several times. He even gave talks in local schools to try and make children aware of the dangers and also tried to help others who were on drugs.â€
After they split up Nicholas eventually moved away to live with members of his family and to start afresh, she said. He had been off drugs for some while, but obviously had gone back to them and accidentally overdosed.
â€œMy song is in his memory and to, hopefully, move a few hearts and to get people to realise that drugs or alcohol are not the way forward. My children are left without a dad because of drugs,â€ said Tanya.
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